Winter Wood

[this is an excerpt from one of my dreams]

The crimson skies

above a haven of lies

black-clouds and grey cloak

he descends with a cold smirk

the clouds squeal

yes they do,through dying eyes

the kid's time had come

the kid had lost his woman to the world

the kid's time had come

his insides decaying with time

he asked the kid

-"last prayers,wishes,any?"

-None

I could wish to stay

I could wish to grow and gray

I could wish for her to be all mine

I won't

my words,they must explode in the moronic heads

my integrity,it must not shatter like how insufficient it is

my ego,yes my ego,must be resurrected

and then,her eyes must coruscate,brim with tears,

don't let them wither.please.

tears of joy,though,must shine when the kiss of sun supersedes her

tears of joy ,to quench my acarpous soul

tears of joy,she must move on like the wind.she will.

tears of joy,f heaven exists,her eyes are those

-Kid,hell exists everywhere

heaven somewhere,its all in you.

-No,soul-less thing,you don't get it,do you?

I want to be a tree,strong,broad and free

with the stationary irony

I want to embrace them,with my shade

as clean as black

I want to accept the him-whoever-whenever

and the her-the-her

I want to be a tree in their orchard

with their fruits of happiness which could have been mine

with their moments which could have been mine

with her love which could have been..well..

I could wish for it all...it wont come true.

my wished,without the veil of elegance

I wish I could cry,I laugh

I wish I could laugh,in this excruciating pain

yes,I have a wish,leave my spirit

to the world,let it be a wanderer

-Oh KID!..oh puerile THING!

get me some money,whisky and dope,will you?.I'll set you free

-I'm Underage for any of those,not 20.just fucking take me with you!

-you belong here,rainbows belong to the world

you belong here,the rainbow will meet another rainbow

you belong here,you belong here

but love does not belong to you

ditched by death,ditched,ditched over and over

oh the count? lost to oblivion

the woman?yes! what about the woman?

some kisses leave behind an eternal scar

NO MORE WOMEN,if not her.

He hoped someday the sun would smile

after all,dear,the cliche is that its day after night

with or without life.

The Insect Who Got Carried Away

I

THE WIND let him sail with her,

the insect with black wax-wings.

his motor roared a constant roar

but was blurred and dwarfed to a hiss

between the waves of cacophony,somewhere,

the hiss got stronger

as his unfettered wings chopped the air

with relentless will to blithely drop and hover

the wind was there and he was there

the symbiosis was just a skin stronger

envious green eyes shone at him

that lucky iron-monger!

II

THE WIND flew all through him now

but his blood flowed a foot higher

drawing a line of control,

right through his bloody chambers

discretion killed no spirit

discretion sowed the seed of awakening

the blood,the flood of spastic desire

eternal desire.

III

THE WIND carried him away,

up,5 flights of the erudition building

where his caviling body succumbed to the pleasure

blue or black under the brown mesmerizing sun,

some petards carry the right,spluttering brew

the insect got carried away.

the joss-stick had an orange glow to at its black edge

as the jougs anticipated a slender neck to a strong post.

IV

THE WIND retreated on reaching

the ebullient shine of its own source

the shine turned the wax-wings into ash

the wind came to an abrupt halt

THE FALL begins:-

down the vast,sprawling dark sky

the wind bloats the insect with heavy baggage

THE FALL continues:-

the insect drops like a boulder into a deep box of water

the wind drifts further away

the wind allows the insect no contact

pilots could call may-day

the insect could only fade away from her(the wind's) life

A silent thud,weeping and flailing lungs

a failing heart and an insect whose ego wasn't very smart

A neon bulb blinks,some cars squeal

an empty packet of smoky bliss

and a shiny gold bottle of malt kiss

THE FALL ENDS.

Breakdown

She looked so sad in sleep
Like a friendly hand
just out of reach
A candle stranded on
a beach
While the sun sinks low
an H-bomb in reverse

Everything human
is leaving
her face

Soon she will disappear
into the calm
vegetable
morass

Stay!

My Wild Love!

Fence my sacred fire
I want. To be simple, black & clean
A dim nothingness
Please
The sea is green
Smoke
With No Waking!

The Science of Night

Earth Air Fire Water
Mother Father Sons & Daughters
Airplane in the starry night
First fright
Forest follow free
I love thee
watch how I love thee

The War

Cold electric music
Damage me
Rend my mind
with your dark slumber

Cold temple of steel
Cold minds alive
on the strangled shore

Veterans of foreign wars
We are the soldiers of
Rock & Roll Wars!

There was preserved
in her
The fresh miracle
of
surprise

Accomplishments:

To make works in the face
of the void
To gain form, idenity
To raise from the herd-crowd

Public favor
public fervor

A quality of ignorance,
self-deception may be
necessary to the poet's
survival